I've been slacking on posts and comments of late. I've got a few excuses up my sleeve (mostly relating to finals, graduation, and an intrusion of Real Life) but I won't trot them out here. Suffice it to say that I'm back.
And I've been thinking.
I just graduated from a good school with a fair amount of debt to my name. Rather than going on to more education -- to law or grad school, like I've planned -- I've decided to take at least the next year (maybe more) off school and work to start paying off the debt I have now and to save up for when I want to go back to school so I can have less debt coming out of that -- especially if I decide to go to law school.
I interviewed for a position yesterday. I did well, I think -- I was on my game, full-force Arwyn, knowing that I'm the sort of person they're looking for and that I can succeed in the field even though it's a far cry from what I majored in. And though I didn't say it during the interview -- where I praised the value of gaining work experience and wanting to get out and learn about the real world for a while and hone my skills while making a valuable contribution to something bigger than myself -- basically, I'm in it for the money.
Now, don't get me wrong. Everything else I said was true: I do
want to get out and experience life, and I do
want to hone my skills, and I do
want to take the next little bit off school to do something different for a while, and I do
want to make a bigger contribution...
...but I can't help but think the main reason I want to do it is for money.
And that's legitimate, right? That's why people work, right? That's why people quit school sometimes. That's why people stay at jobs they abhor. That's the main point of working.
Basically, I'm approaching a quandary.
I feel that I should approach the job as something more than just a paycheck. That it should be part of my personal development, something that can help me grow in the direction I want to grow, something I'll look forward to doing in the mornings.
And I can't say I won't. But, as it stands, what I'm most looking forward to is getting the paycheck every couple weeks, paying rent on an apartment of my own, paying off that debt, and putting some aside for future education.
In the end, I feel like I'm being eminently practical.
And to tie it into the Mormon theme here, I feel that I'm being so very practical because I was taught from a young age not to spend money I don't have, not to stay in debt, not to accumulate it if I can avoid it, and to work hard independently to take care of myself because that's what the Prophet said to do and that's what the pioneers did.
I feel like I've been rambling here, but it's been on my mind for a while: from the perspective of Arwyn-raised-LDS, this job seems perfect; from the perspective of Arwyn-liberally-educated, it seems lacking in so many aspects.
What do you guys think? How do you approach it? Any advice for the just-entering-the-workforce on how to appreciate the money without losing sight of bigger goals? And -- to ask a question that is grounded only in my own observations and no other facts or figures -- do you think a Mormon upbringing inclines one more toward money (for supporting a family or paying off debt rather than necessarily just for the love of money itself) over satisfaction in a career?